He swore he didn’t love me anymore. That was the most painful couch ever came out from him. What more can I say? Tears went out faster. I know he got a strong alibi to dumps me but he can’t leave me after all the things I’ve done to mend this. I’m begging, pleading, weeping and it’s all so pathetic. I’ve lost my dignity for doing those things but he doesn’t even appreciate it. I make believe that I’m gonna get through this. I do not quit easily but keep trying to patch it up. We had been together for more than two years but he just gets rid of me in moment. He blames me and it feels like I’m the one who deserved to be chastised. I tried to reach him frequently and he keeps on ignoring me. I pleaded to his cousin so as to do me a favour. But it’s all in vain. He chucks me like a junk. By no means to give up, I promised myself to coax him and show how deep my love is. That is the only reason for me to persist in trying. But now I realize it was futile.
Sometimes, I think to myself
How did I love you so much?
And end up hating you this much
How could you ever do this to me?
You told me you had the pieces catching you ***** on me
How could you just forget about what we had?
All the good times always outweighed the bad
How could you just lie right to my face
When I could see it all along coz you left a trace
I didn't think that someone else could take my place
Now I can't stand the memories, I want them to erase
Do me a favour, throw all the presents away
You talk bullshit; I don't care what you got to say
The sun was shining bright but now it's raining today
I got to get this out of my head but it's on replay
I don't want to believe this is really happening
I let you in deep inside when no **** has ever been
But then there was a major price that I paid
I lost my heart, now this’ my last serenade
Do you remember all the times, the times I was there?
I stayed up to talk to you whenever you had nightmares
When you were feeling down, I wiped away them tears
When you were feeling pain, I made them disappear
I thought you needed me, I'm sorry for being here
Now it's clear you got somebody else, it appears
You cut me deep baby, it's like you used a knife
You was my life, but now I want you out of my life
You changed way too much, nothing stayed the same
If I never met you, maybe I wouldn't feel this pain
I asked why our roads had to cross
I learned love was like a game, but the thing is I lost
I don't care; our love already hit the ground
As I walk out I don't want you to see the tears run down
You're a stranger now and I write my pain on this paper now
To let you know I really hate, hate, hate you now
Look you got to leave, I don't want you anymore
So give me back my pride and I'm closing the door
This situation we got at hand I can't ignore
I keep forgetting we'll go back n forth
Like we at war
You was the one, the one I always use to adore
The tables turn now and I can't take no more
I lost my pride over the love I had for you
It's ok because the love I had was really true
But unlike you, them 3 little words was fake
You left me with a heart aching and a heartbreak
Go on ****, go on **** baby just go
Before you leave there's something I want u to know
I want to take back the moment of our first kiss
I don't want to look back at this and reminisce
I don't want you to be the one, the one I'll miss
Because in my new life, you won't even exist
See the thing is baby, I do love you
But at the same time I hate you
I mean don't take this song personal
But it is what it is
You got to understand where I'm coming from
My point of view and how I'm feeling
I want you to know that I'm sorry
But I hate you
I sacrificed it all for him. He says he gave me one last chance but what he do when I’m trying to picking up all the pieces? He let me down again. My heart bleeds. He disrespects me. But I’ve promised to be tough. Everything happens for a reason and this phrase egg on me to think positively. And most of all, thanks Lord for answering my prayer.
