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Tuesday, October 26, 2010

☢ ∂εʝℯḉт℮∂ ☢

Tнєяє ї$ $о мцcн то тєll, вцт му нaйd$ щойт lєт мє туpё. Maувє їт’$ jц$т вєїйg оЬєdїёйт то му мїиd шїтн тнє aїм оf pяёvєитїйg му нёaят fоя lёттїйg оцт all тнє fяоzєй fєёlїиg їй$їdє. Йот тнёїя faцlт acтцallу. Jц$т a cоиflїcт оf мїжєd fєєlїйg aйd acтїои Ьєcомё$ вlцяґєd. Їт’$ a gооd єffоґт acтцallу fоя шоякїйg тоgётнёя то $тоp мє fґом Ьєїйg fґощй. Щнєй вlоggїиg, all Ї gот то dо ї$ тяaи$fоям му $ёитїмёит їито шоґd$. Їт’$ иот нaяd вцт Ї нavё то тнїик оf тнє paїи aиd fёёl їт dёєpєґ; all aЬоцт му paтнєтїc dяaмa їи lїfё.


Ї’м aвоцт то gїvє цp шнєи нє $aїd нё щїllїйg то gїvє мё оиє la$т cнaиcє. Bєfоґє тнaт Ї тоld нїм нощ вad їт ї$ fоґ нavїиg нїм a$ му єж. Ї aм cґуїиg. All daу Ї нavє Ьёёй щaїтїйg fоя нїм. Їт’$ a plєa$цґё тнaт нё agґёє то pїcк цp му call. Ї aм нappу aйd $о ёжcїтёd. Hє щa$ $тцdуїйg вёfоґє Ї Ьотнёґ нїм. Ї aм ґцїйєd. Hє мad aт мє. Hє тґёaт$ мё вad. Ї fёёl тнё flош оf му щaґм тёaґ$ їи му cнёёк.  Ї ноpє нє щїll fёёl a Ьїт fїйё afтёґ тнє pнойє call вцт advёґ$ё тнїиg нappєи$. Ї’м $оґяу fоґ тнaт. Ї кйош Ї нavє Ьёєй Ьad. Иощ Ї caи Ьaґёlу cґу їй яёgґёт. Ї нaтё тнё$ё fєєlїиg$ тнaт Ї нad. Lоvїиg нїм, мї$$їйg нїм єvєяу момєйт вцт aт la$т їт шa$ иотнїйg то нїм. Йот ёvёй appґёcїaтєd; оґ aм Ї a$кїиg тоо мцcн?


Ї’м $їcк оf Ьёїйg gцїlту. Ї щои’т caґє aвоцт му fёєlїиg$ aиумояё. Ї pцт нїм fїґ$т cоz Ї шaитєd нїм то вё нappу. Ї тнґощ aщaу all ґёdцйdaйт fёєlїйg. Tяуїйg нaяd то Ьё оpтїмї$т їй facт Ї кйощ тнё тґцтн. Ї jц$т кєєp ои Ьєїйg їgиояaйт то тнё fёєlїйg$ Ї dой’т шaйт то нavє. Dєёp їй$їdє Ї киош нє lоvё$ мё. Hє тоld мє тнaт aйd Ї fёёl їт. Bцт $омєтїмє$ тнїиg$ тцґй цglу Ьётщёёи ц$. Ї кёёp шойdєґїйg нош aйd нєґє cомё$ тнє иєgaтїvё тноцgнт. Кєєp щнї$pёяїиg ой му ёaґ. Gо aшaу! Ї dои’т иёёd aйу pё$$їмї$тїc pо$$їЬїlїту. Ї киош нё’$ вєєи вц$у all daу aйd Ьёcомё тїґєd. Dїffєяёйт fяом мё, Ї’м jц$т вёїйg вґошиёd оff ёvєяу $їйglё daу.

$оой afтёґ тнaт, Ї яєalїzёd нє dо їт ой pцяpо$є. Hє шaйт$ мё то cнaиgё aйd appґёcїaтє нїм a$ му lоvёя. Ї’vё dоиё тоо мaйу мї$тaкє$ aиd Ї fёёl яєallу вad aЬоцт їт. Ї’vё pґомї$є то Ьє вёттёґ. Lоvё уоц alщaу$ му Ї$~

Tнё ЬїЬlє & Tнє Dїaмоиd Яїиg

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband. For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in a showroom, and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.
As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband had purchased the diamond ring.
Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into study his study.
Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife, and told her how much he loved her. He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bounded Bible, with the wife’s name embossed in gold. Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, ‘with all your money you give me a Bible?’ And stormed out of the house, leaving her husband.
Many years passed and the lady was very successful in business. She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family, but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years.
But before she could make arrangement, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of is possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things.
When she arrived at her ex-husband’s house, sudden sadness and regret filled her heart. She began to search through her ex-husband’s important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years before. With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. Her ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11. ‘And if you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father, who is in heaven, give is good to those who ask Him?’
As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a diamond ring, with her name engraved on it—the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom. On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words. ‘LOVE U ALWAYS’.
How many times do we miss God’s blessings, because they are not packaged as we expected?
Do not spoil what you have, by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the thing you only hoped for.
IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT, IT’S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS.
ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO BIGGER & BETTER THINGS.
‘The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.’

Ї gот тнї$ fґом тоdaу’$ Ьцllётїй. Tнё момєит Ї єйтёя тнё cнцґcн, Ї $aш Яёv. Fґ. Jїм$у Jцlїц$. Hє ї$ a gооd pґїє$т aиd fяїёйdlу тоо. Mо$т оf all Ї lїкє то нёaґ номїlу fґом нїм. Ує$тєяdaу шa$ нї$ 15тн aййїvєґ$aяу оf Ьёїйg faтнёя.
Jц$т lїкё єvєґу шёєк, Ьєfоґє тнє мa$$ gоїиg aнёad, Ї щїll ґєad тнё ёжёмplaґу $ноят $тоґу їи тнє Ьacк оf тнє вцllётїй. Aиd тнї$ уaґй тоцcнёd мє $о мцcн. Ї шa$ jц$т aЬоцт то $нєd тёaґ$ aиd Ї dой’т кйощ нощ Ї gот $о ёмотїоиal. Ma$$ $тaґтёd aйd Ї’м cяacк dошй ои їт. Иош, нёґё cомё$ тнє favоцґїтє paґт-номїlу. Tнё pґїё$т нad gяaввєd оцґ aттєитїои ву $aуїйg ‘шну dо Ї шaитёd то Ьє a pґїё$т?’ нё pцт ц$ їи cцяїо$їту. Hё $тaятєd нї$ $тояу ву тёllїиg шно нє шa$. Уa.. Jц$т lїкё шнaт Ї тноцgнт нё ёvёґ нad a gїґlfґїєиd. Hє тёll$ ц$ aЬоцт нощ нё gяadцallу cнaиgёd fяом вad то gооd. Aвоцт нї$ му$тёяїоц$ dяёaм$ aиd fїиallу нё вёcaмё a pґїё$т. Їт шa$ all $о ґємaґкaЬlё.
Hё тнєй ёжplaїи$ тнё мо$т pощєґfцl pяaуёґ тнaт щё мaу оffєґ ї$ тнє$є gяёaт щояd$ щё caй fїиd їй тоdaу’$ ЬїЬlє qцотє$. ‘Havё мєґcу ои мє О Gоd fоґ Ї aм a $їйиёґ.’ Pґaуїйg ї$ йот ойlу $aуїйg a pяaуёя вцт a тїмє то lї$тєи то тнє Gоd’$ vоїcє, a dєёpєя cомpяёнёи$їой, a мёdїтaтїои aйd ґєflєcтїои. Їй pяaуїиg їт ї$ йот иёcё$$aґу то нavє шоґd. $омётїмё$ a момёит оf $їlєйт ї$ all щё иєёd то оffєґ.
Уё$. Їт’$ тяцё. Ї affїґм то му$ёlf.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Bцттёґflу a$ a Cнґї$тїaй $умЬоl

Tнё Ьцттєґflу нa$ lоиg Ьєёи a Cнґї$тїaй $умЬоl оf яё$цяяёcтїой, fоґ їт dї$appёaя$ їито a cоcоой aйd appёaя$ dєad, вцт ёмёґgё$ laтёґ faґ моґє Ьєaцтїfцl aиd pощєяfцl тнaи Ьєfоґє. A$ a $умЬоl оf Cняї$т'$ ґё$цяяєcтїои afтёя тняєё daу$ їи тнє gґavє, тнє Ьцттёґflу ї$ $єєи є$pёcїallу aґоцйd Єa$тёґ. Bцт тнё Ьцттёґflу ї$ al$о a $умЬоl оf ёvёяу Cняї$тїaй'$ ноpє оf яё$цґяєcтїой fяом тнє dёad.


Яёlaтёd BїЬlё Vёя$є$
$о шїll їт Ьё шїтн тнё яё$цґяєcтїой оf тнё dєad. Tнё воdу тнaт ї$ $оши ї$ pєґї$нaЬlё, їт ї$ яaї$ёd їмpёґї$нaЬlё; їт ї$ $ощй їй dї$ноиоґ, їт ї$ яaї$ёd їи glоґу; їт ї$ $оши їи щёaкиє$$, їт ї$ ґaї$єd їи pошёґ; їт ї$ $ошй a йaтцґal воdу, їт ї$ яaї$єd a $pїяїтцal Ьоdу. (1 Cоґїйтнїaи$ 15:42-44)
Fоя тнё тяцмpёт шїll $оциd, тнё dєad шїll Ьё яaї$ёd їмpёяї$нaвlё, aиd щє щїll вє cнaйgёd. (1 Cояїитнїaи$ 15:52Ь) 

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Thursday, October 7, 2010

✞ ℛѺ$ÅℛУ ✞

The month of October is dedicated to the Holy Rosary. Since the prayers of the Rosary come from such excellent sources; from Our Lord Himself, from inspired Scripture, and from the Church, it is not surprising that the Rosary is so dear to our Blessed Mother and so powerful with heaven. If we consider the power of the Rosary as seen in its effects, we find a great abundance of proofs of its wonderful value. 

"The Most Holy Virgin in these last times in which we live has given a new efficacy to the recitation of the Rosary to such an extent that there is no problem, no matter how difficult it is, whether temporal or above all spiritual, in the personal life of each one of us, of our families...that cannot be solved by the Rosary. There is no problem, I tell you, no matter how difficult it is, that we cannot resolve by the prayer of the Holy Rosary." ~Sister Lucia dos Santos
The Rosary is not only a mental prayer, but also a vocal prayer in which we meditate on the virtues of the Life, Death, Passion and Glory of Jesus Christ and His Blessed Mother, the Virgin Mary. The rosary owes its origin to St. Dominic. It is a humble prayer that many sinners owe their conversion to.

ROSARY PRAYERS


The Apostles' Creed
I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended to the dead. On the third day he rose again. He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy Catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting. Amen.

Our Father (The Lords Prayer)
Our Father in heaven, holy be your Name, your Kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Do not bring us to the test but deliver us from evil. Amen.

The Hail Mary
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

The Glory Be To The Father
Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit; as it was in the beginning, is now, and will be forever, Amen.

After each decade say the following prayer requested by the Blessed Virgin Mary at Fatima:
"O my Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of hell, lead all souls to Heaven, especially those who have most need of your mercy."

The Joyful Mysteries:
(Said on Mondays and Saturdays, the Sundays of Advent,
and Sundays from Epiphany until Lent)
1. The Annunciation (Humility)
2. The Visitation (Fraternal Charity)
3. The Nativity (Love of God)
4. The Presentation (Spirit of sacrifice)
5. Finding in the Temple (Zeal)

The Luminous Mysteries (Mysteries of Light):
(Said on Thursdays)
1. The Baptism of the Lord (Sacrament of Baptism)
2. The Wedding of Cana (Fidelity)
3. The Proclamation of the Kingdom (Desire for Holiness)
4. The Transfiguration (Spiritual Courage)
5. The Institution of the Eucharist (Love of Our Eucharistic Lord)

The Sorrowful Mysteries:
(Said on Tuesdays, Fridays throughout the year;
and daily from Ash Wednesday until Easter Sunday)
1. Agony in the Garden (True Repentance)
2. Scourging at the Pillar (Mortification)
3. Crowning with Thorns (Moral Courage)
4. Carrying the Cross (Patience)
5. The Crucifixion (Final Perseverance)

The Glorious Mysteries:
(Said on Wednesdays and the Sundays from Easter until Advent)
1. The Resurrection (Faith)
2. The Ascension (Hope)
3. The Descent of the Holy Spirit (Zeal)
4. The Assumption (Happy Death)
5. The Coronation of B.V.M. (Love for Mary)

The Hail Holy Queen
(Said after the completion of the five mysteries)
Hail! Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, our life, our sweetness and our Hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve. To thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, O most gracious advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us; and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O clement! O loving! O sweet Virgin Mary!

Pray for us, O Holy Mother of God. That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.

Let Us Pray
O God, whose only begotten Son, by His life, death and resurrection has purchased for us
The rewards of eternal life, grant, we beseech You, that meditating upon these mysteries in the most Holy Rosary of The Blessed Virgin Mary, we may imitate what they contain and
Obtain what they promise. Through the same Christ, our Lord. Amen.
For the intentions of the Holy Father, recite one "Our Father," one "Hail Mary," and a "Glory Be."
In the name of The Father, and of The Son and of The Holy Spirit. Amen.

THE 15 PROMISES

1. Whoever shall faithfully serve me by the recitation of the Rosary, shall receive powerful graces.
2. I promise my special protection and the greatest graces to all those who shall recite the Rosary.
3. The Rosary shall be a powerful armor against hell, it will destroy vice, decrease sin, and defeat heresies
4. It will cause virtue and good works to flourish; it will obtain for souls the abundant mercy of God; it will withdraw the hearts of people from the love of the world and its vanities, and will lift them to the desire of eternal things. Oh, that souls would sanctify themselves by this means.
5. The soul which recommends itself to me by the recitation of the Rosary, shall not perish.
6. Whoever shall recite the Rosary devoutly, applying himself to the consideration of its Sacred Mysteries shall never be conquered by misfortune. God will not chastise him in His justice, he shall not perish by an unprovided death; if he be just, he shall remain in the grace of God, and become worthy of eternal life.
7. Whoever shall have a true devotion for the Rosary shall not die without the Sacraments of the Church.
8. Those who are faithful to recite the Rosary shall have during their life and at their death the light of God and the plentitude of His graces; at the moment of death they shall participate in the merits of the Saints in Paradise.
9. I shall deliver from purgatory those who have been devoted to the Rosary.
10. The faithful children of the Rosary shall merit a high degree of glory in Heaven.
11. You shall obtain all you ask of me by the recitation of the Rosary.
12. All those who propagate the Holy Rosary shall be aided by me in their necessities.
13. I have obtained from my Divine Son that all the advocates of the Rosary shall have for intercessors the entire celestial court during their life and at the hour of death.
14. All who recite the Rosary are my children, and brothers and sisters of my only Son, Jesus Christ.
15. Devotion of my Rosary is a great sign of predestination.

BLESSING OF THE ROSARY

1. Sinners are forgiven.
2. Souls that thirst are refreshed.
3. Those who are fettered have their bonds broken.
4. Those who weep find happiness
5. Those who are tempted find peace.
6. The poor find help.
7. Religious are reformed.
8. Those who are ignorant are instructed.
9. The living learn to overcome pride.
10. The dead (the Holy Souls) have their pains eased by suffrages.

BENEFITS OF THE ROSARY

1. It gradually gives us a perfect knowledge of Jesus Christ.
2. It purifies our souls, washing away sin.
3. It gives us victory over all our enemies.
4. It makes it easy for us to practice virtue.
5. It sets us on fire with love of Our Lord.
6. It enriches us with graces and merits.
7. It supplies us with what is needed to pay all our debts to God and to our fellow men; and finally, it obtains all kinds of graces for us from Almighty God.

INDULGENCES

An indulgence is the remission before God of the temporal punishment due to sins whose guilt has already been forgiven, a remission, which one of the faithful, properly disposed and under certain definite conditions, can acquire through the Church, which authoritatively dispenses, applying the treasure of the satisfactions of Christ and the Saints.
An indulgence is either PLENARY or PARTIAL, depending upon whether it frees one from the whole or from a part of the temporal punishment due to sin.
This means that one of the faithful who, with at least a contrite heart, performs a work enriched with a partial indulgence, is granted by the power of the Church that same amount of remission of temporal punishment as he has already obtained by the work itself. In other words, the remission is doubled, and that as often as the work prescribed is performed. A plenary indulgence means a full remission of temporal punishment, provided that several other conditions apply, in addition to the work performed or prayer said.
A plenary indulgence is granted, if the Rosary is recited in a church or public oratory or in a family group, a religious Community or pious Association; a partial indulgence is granted in other circumstances.
• "Now the Rosary is a certain formula of prayer, which is made up of fifteen decades of "Hail Marys" with an "Our Father" before each decade, and in which the recitation of each decade is accompanied by pious meditation on a particular mystery of our Redemption." (Roman Breviary) The name "Rosary," however, is commonly used in reference to only a third part of the fifteen decades.

The gaining of the plenary indulgence is regulated by the following norms:
1) The recitation of a third part only of the Rosary suffices; but the five decades must be recited continuously.
2) The vocal recitation must be accompanied by pious meditation on the mysteries.
3) In public recitation the mysteries must be announced in the manner customary in the place; for private recitation, however, it suffices if the vocal recitation is accompanied by meditation on the mysteries.

Friday, September 24, 2010

☠ ℍṲℜ✞ ☠

He swore he didn’t love me anymore. That was the most painful couch ever came out from him. What more can I say? Tears went out faster. I know he got a strong alibi to dumps me but he can’t leave me after all the things I’ve done to mend this. I’m begging, pleading, weeping and it’s all so pathetic. I’ve lost my dignity for doing those things but he doesn’t even appreciate it. I make believe that I’m gonna get through this. I do not quit easily but keep trying to patch it up. We had been together for more than two years but he just gets rid of me in moment. He blames me and it feels like I’m the one who deserved to be chastised. I tried to reach him frequently and he keeps on ignoring me. I pleaded to his cousin so as to do me a favour. But it’s all in vain. He chucks me like a junk. By no means to give up, I promised myself to coax him and show how deep my love is. That is the only reason for me to persist in trying. But now I realize it was futile.

Sometimes, I think to myself
How did I love you so much?
And end up hating you this much
How could you ever do this to me?
You told me you had the pieces catching you ***** on me
How could you just forget about what we had?
All the good times always outweighed the bad
How could you just lie right to my face
When I could see it all along coz you left a trace
I didn't think that someone else could take my place
Now I can't stand the memories, I want them to erase
Do me a favour, throw all the presents away
You talk bullshit; I don't care what you got to say
The sun was shining bright but now it's raining today
I got to get this out of my head but it's on replay
I don't want to believe this is really happening
I let you in deep inside when no **** has ever been
But then there was a major price that I paid
I lost my heart, now this’ my last serenade
Do you remember all the times, the times I was there?
I stayed up to talk to you whenever you had nightmares
When you were feeling down, I wiped away them tears
When you were feeling pain, I made them disappear
I thought you needed me, I'm sorry for being here
Now it's clear you got somebody else, it appears
You cut me deep baby, it's like you used a knife
You was my life, but now I want you out of my life
You changed way too much, nothing stayed the same
If I never met you, maybe I wouldn't feel this pain
I asked why our roads had to cross
I learned love was like a game, but the thing is I lost
I don't care; our love already hit the ground
As I walk out I don't want you to see the tears run down
You're a stranger now and I write my pain on this paper now
To let you know I really hate, hate, hate you now
Look you got to leave, I don't want you anymore
So give me back my pride and I'm closing the door
This situation we got at hand I can't ignore
I keep forgetting we'll go back n forth
Like we at war
You was the one, the one I always use to adore
The tables turn now and I can't take no more
I lost my pride over the love I had for you
It's ok because the love I had was really true
But unlike you, them 3 little words was fake
You left me with a heart aching and a heartbreak
Go on ****, go on **** baby just go
Before you leave there's something I want u to know
I want to take back the moment of our first kiss
I don't want to look back at this and reminisce
I don't want you to be the one, the one I'll miss
Because in my new life, you won't even exist
See the thing is baby, I do love you
But at the same time I hate you
I mean don't take this song personal
But it is what it is
You got to understand where I'm coming from
My point of view and how I'm feeling
I want you to know that I'm sorry
But I hate you

I sacrificed it all for him. He says he gave me one last chance but what he do when I’m trying to picking up all the pieces? He let me down again. My heart bleeds. He disrespects me. But I’ve promised to be tough. Everything happens for a reason and this phrase egg on me to think positively. And most of all, thanks Lord for answering my prayer.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

ṧтυ℘їḋ ℊḯяℓṥ αґℯ ℮αṥγ ṫ◎ ḓüρℯ

I'm blogging now in order to tell you a real story. Since you were reading, so make an effort to get a lesson from this. I have five brothers. And you know what; each of them has a very distinct attitude. Swear to you there’s some which I don’t like. I believe that hands-on things will give enormous impact to our self. But for me, learn from observation or based on others’ experience is sometimes worth enough to give an admonition about the things I should evade.

A dead ringer for what I did. Judging others is not my thing but every so often I will do that. I’m not a perfect girl and I am not a type of superior girl. But for sure I am better than them: those people I refer to. I’m talking about others that I don’t like but not in a straightforward manner. Can’t help it, hehehe.. My blog is like my diary. I don’t think others are interested to read this, maybe yes but once in a while.

At this moment I want to share what I really feel about bringing your lover home. It sounds too extensive. So I’m going to narrow the topic down. This is for those who still young and do not own a house yet, I mean still staying with their parent or someone who staying at hostel and occasionally go home. Nowadays, many do think that it is a sign that the person wanted to be in a solemn relationship. I don’t think so.

My bro used to bring his girlfriends home. Girl might think it is sweet and the guy is actually taking the relationship seriously. Nope! It wasn’t like that. There is just maybe. Girl, do you really think that you are the one who ever get here to be introduced as his girl? A big no for that! I can see it through your smile that you wanted to be a part of his family. When I carved a smile for you during the handshake, it was for the hell of there’s a whisper says “another dupe!”

I think I should tell you a bit about this guy; good looking, have a fine job, own a 4wd car at a young age, simple and have a nice smile. As a girl, he could be one of the finest pick to become a dream lover. His girls are younger than him and some of them just pass their SPM with poignant results. Sorry to say but this is true. This guy told me that none of them is his girlfriend and they are not too endearing as well. Now, who’s the real moron is? For me, those girls are cheap, go back and forth with a guy and damn easy to be carried home. They even cook for this guy and think they’ll be the dreamed wife. Witty! I characterize them as girl because they are so immature.

So as to remind you, be careful with guy’s request. Some might just want to test you with the intention of determining which type of girl you are. If they bring you home, don’t just simply say yes. They may not do something ominous to you but in term of dignity, you should pay a heed for that. Also, try to consider what others may think about you. Ya~ It’s true that you can simply ignore them, but you live with society. They have the right to judge, so don’t be denial. “Being ignorant is not so much a shame, as being unwilling to learn.”

To deal with this problem parent is the most important component. Isn’t it? Father plays the big role in family. If you respect the head of family, you will feel ashamed of doing such thing. Back to the story, the guy is having the guts to bring his girls only if the ‘big man’ is not around. A day off means a girl to be met; single day for each girl. This guy is willing to cancel his date at home just because they don’t have the courage to do so when dad is around. It’s good coz they still have a little respect towards those people who deserved it. Not like other parent, they prefer to be an idiot than a guardian. Letting their child do whatever they want even in front of their eyes.

Now, let’s imagine the contrary things happen. The guy went to the girl’s house and spends a night there every time they had a chance? Haha. WTF? My bro said the girl is actually a bitch. Even a player knows that. So, think before you act. Doesn’t mean that you are free to do whatever you like if no one prohibits you. I have five male siblings and one great dad. They certainly will take a good care of me. Unlike you. Don’t be too wild girl, he is not your husband yet, in fact he is just your boyfriend. Someone who you claim is now rest in peace maybe watching you and your mum. Beware of your attitude. Pity you. Hope he’s the real one for you. It’s that really a love or merely lust? Reading you status at fb sometimes makes me feel you are unhappy and about to face your karma. My bad side of heart says, serve you right. But sincerely from my heart says good luck girl, God bless you.

It’s all none of my business. I’m writing this is just for fun so, no hard feeling. What’s more, comprehend this well. You’ve done reading and i hope you’ll avoid yourself of doing terrible things yet again.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

☠ ỚḾЇℕỚÜ$ ☠

I don’t feel good. Feels like I want to break down in tears but I cannot find any explanation for that. Nobody hurts me and I’m not pissed off by any other. So why can this feeling exist and let me drown on it. There is slightly unpleasant sense in my soul and I want to heave it out. But I’m now struggling to transform it into words so as to chuck it away. Perhaps, every bit of it is because what had happen recently. Let me take a long sigh. Huuuuhhhh~

The faultless word to describe this few days is ‘boring’. I’ve done nothing unusual compare to the other days though I should have done something this week. Actually, Wednesday was a big day for me. I ought to go for my interview but alas it was cancelled. It is just because a trivial mistake done by the administrator of SPPS ums. Somehow, all the bachelors of education were disqualified to go and take their interview this week. The issue is all about the written date on the senate verification letter. It should be 24 June 2010 instead of 29 July 2010. It’s all in rush.

Back to several days before, I’ve done anything to ensure my preparation is perfect. I went to get verification for all documents needed for the interview. I went there twice, back and forth. I brought a new case to store my certificates. Later on I’ve conducted my tuition. During the night, I was quite tired but I’ve studied after drank a cup of coffee. I stay up late just to get ready for my interview. Also, a couple of days before, I was unable to online due to some problem with my broadband.

Tuesday, I’ve cancelled my tuition class just because I want to prepare well for my interview. Woke up at 7am and checking my FB. Damn. Just a day off and something big happen. Is this for real? I eager to find the answer. WTF? Annoying truth I have to bear. I’m bowled over. Then I said to myself, everything happen for a reason. Yes~ it works. I’m denying the truth that I’m disappointed. I didn’t do anything. Just carry on with my routine. I have much time for myself, plus tuition was cancelled.

Moment past and now I feel something is wrong. Suddenly I feel down. How long will I keep waiting? Staying home and unemployed. It doesn’t feel good to have this feeling. Yes. I’m tutoring some students but that wasn’t because I want to earn money. I do it just because the demand and to fill my time for this while. That’s all. “Time always seems long to the one who is waiting.” This is so true. Yesterday, I went to get a form to become temporary teacher. Till now, I haven’t filled it yet and I don’t even know when will I submit it. Maybe I will, LATER.

Monday, July 26, 2010

HoE

This is a real story about a girl named Bitch. Don’t expect me to respect you, coz you do not deserve it. I know the true you, even if you wear a mask or what so ever. But I can give you around of applause, such a perfect masquerade. You are actually a hoe. Being an oldest sister, u should know how to be a good example. Where gone your dignity? Don’t you ever embarrass of yourself? Are you trying to be a western girl? Please, it isn’t appropriate here, it makes you became a cheap girl actually. Your younger sibling saw you were fucking with one of you bf on your room. Shame on you! How can you act like nothing happen? He punched at your door, to wake you up, to save your family’s dignity but you don’t want to listen. Should I remind you that your relatives are anywhere outside and you just bring your bf into your room and making sex. Soon after, your cousin saw you two naked in bed while the guest still outside. I think it is an exact word to call you bitches.

The next day, u lied to your mum, saying there’s nothing going on last night and your sibling actually telling a lie. Most shocking is your mum trusted u. But I think she just being denial coz she’s doing the same thing too. Living with her fiancé just like husband and wife. A widow and widower are together with invalid bond. What an awful family.

One seems not enough huh? You kinda addicted to sex. Having more boyfriend and they just have you like that. Easy. How can you not aware that they just want to play around with you? You are such a moron. Feels like a hot chick when surrounded by men everywhere, frequently brings one of your boys to make out at home. Such a hoe. The most shocking thing is your mum allowed each of them to ‘wear’ you. She also gives permission for your guys to stay in your home overnight. In your room specifically. Notice that, this girl actually lost his biological father few years ago. But, it wasn’t a ticket for her to become prostitute.

I hate this girl because she’s hiding behind her innocent look. A simple girl but a real fake. A slut! Pretend she is religious when she actually just wears it as mask. Now, you must have been wondering how I can know much about this girl. Her sibling told me everything. Keep on telling me how sick it is to have such sister. He asks me to keep it silent and all the conversation is only between us. But today, I’m really sorry for him coz let it out in here. The girls had become one of a thing for us to be in fight. I really hope thereafter we don’t bother about her no more. It got nothing to do with me as well. End of this and everything terminated here.

I pick one appropriate song from my favourite artist, Hollywood Undead entitled Bitches. :p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6vJsHCxBi4

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Cut the Crap

Yet again, I’m out of mood. I don’t think that I’m a type of grumpy person but today, something is pissing me off. You may take a guest, but the answer is no other than FB. I still wonder why everyone keep on trying to increase their number of friends in FB, but then hiding all information about them self. Doesn’t make any sense. Don’t they worry of stalker? Why they don’t presently removing the unknown person in FB or customizing their profile in order to ensure only their close friends are able to view them. Unlike my irritating friends; keep approving stranger’s request and subsequently not even interact with them. Isn’t that weird? Or is that some kind of showing off; who had the most friends are famous. I just don’t get it. Some of my friends keep on viewing my profile and photo. Reading every single word I wrote on my wall but don’t want to let me know anything about them. It isn’t fair! Just now I keep my photo private to those people. Serve you right.

Concerning the same thing, a friend of mine which can be considered as my bosom friend is now changing. She was a shy girl before, low profile, nerd and lack of self confidence. But when she have a FB account, she became arrogant. Claiming every single add to be her friend in FB is admiring her. At first, I thought she was just joking but then I realize that she mean it that way. She’s struggling to increase her friends’ number. Notify you what; they get easy excess to your info. She told me this, “In FB we should put our status as single so that guy will comes to us. That’s why I went to single from being a relationship”. I thought she was just joking, then I said “You’re naughty” but then she replied “We should be clever to maintain our lure to those guys, like me”. Then suddenly I got sickness. Eeu... U r bit too much. Haughty! Over confident as well. I got lot more friends than you do. Plus, I’m not just randomly approving them. Not the same as what u did. Excuse me miss, is that what it feels like to have an access to internet frequently? She became obsess once she is able to online more often. She just a kampung girl, who do not have internet access at home and she doesn’t even have laptop. Now u know how she feels once staying at hostel with the facility provided.

It’s all I got to say now. I just want to speak it out in words. And I’m sure none of the person I’ve mention here will read this post. But if they do, wake up buddy. Maybe I write this just because I feel upset. Hope no hard feeling thereafter. Till then, I would like to put one of my favourite songs for the time being for you to enjoy. Below are the link and the lyric. Get pleasure from it! Thanks for reading.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDMTe_hN6pQ

Love The Way You Lie Lyrics

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
Love the way you lie

[Verse 1 - Eminem]
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight all I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight

High off on love, drunk from my hate
It's like I'm huffin' paint and I love it
The more I suffer, I suffocate
Right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates
Me, she fuckin' hates me, and I love it, Wait!
Where you going? I'm leaving you.
No you ain't. Come back. We're running right back

Here we go again, it's so insane
Cuz when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind in his back
She's Lois Lane
and when it's bad, it's awful
I feel so ashamed, I snap "Who's that dude?"
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on him, I never stood so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 2 - Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much,
you could barely breathe when you with 'em?
You meet, and neither one of you even know it hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills you still get 'em
Now you gettin' fuckin' sick of lookin' at 'em
You swore you'd never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em
You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down, pin 'em, so lost in the moments when you're with 'em

Mr .(?). is the culprit ..(?)..
Shawty say, you'd best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya cuz today,
That was yesterday, yesterday is over and it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over
But you promised her, next time you'd show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo Game
but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it "window pane"

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 3 - Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same team
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded

Baby please come back, it wasn't you. Baby it was me.
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much, to walk away now
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
I told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won't be no next time
I apologize, even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games, I just want her back. I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again,
Ima tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
Just gonna

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

p/s such a long song, perfect duo. She’s hottie and he’s the best rapper.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

* words *

Today I’m a kind of free due to cancellation of tuition class. On weekdays, I’m tutoring some students for mathematics subject from 2 till 5pm. I provided three hours duration to teach and assist them. All of them, which is not many are about to sit for their UPSR and PMR. So, I try to help them in order to understand maths better. Actually, this wasn’t my idea. But due to the demand from their parents, I finally agree to take this responsibility. I don’t know why these kids are not interested in mathematics as I was during the same age with them. They said maths is hard which I never thought it was, maybe once in a while. But I think maths is much easier compare to BM which we can consider as an easy subject. Am I correct? Hehehe...

What am I talking about? Actually, the reason for me to write this post is actually to come clean about what did I posted on my FB wall recently. Honestly, I felt alone yesterday coz no one here in my house. So, I just randomly pick a quote which in relation to alone and got it write on my wall. It didn’t come from me and I don’t really mean it. But some of my friends got me wrong and tried to express their opinion about happiness. A little too much coz they taking it seriously. Relax buddy, this is just a ‘hit and miss’ quote.

“All of our unhappiness comes from our inability to be alone.” ~Jean

My mistake! My main point is to let other know that I’m alone. It doesn’t mean that I’m unhappy and lonely. I didn’t realize that it was the predicted meaning primarily. Whatever. They can bite their own tongue. There after, we have a little argument about that trifling thing. That was the time I own up and said “If we r able to socialize, doesn’t mean that we’ll never b alone. Alone doesn’t always mean that we r unhappy. Might be sometimes but not at all times. But if ever the word SAD was the 1st word used instead of happiness, it'll makes no different in term of semantic i think...“. A soon after it comes to a conclusion that the spat was about the semantic issue. A huge relief afterward. Fuh~

At this instant, I don’t feels like I want to fool around in FB. Thus, I’m blogging. I just want to pay no heed to FB stuff for a while. Since the status we post in FB will be read by other, every single word we used is important. Person who reads will also judge us by the sentence we used. I myself was doing the same think too when reading my friends’ status in the news feed. So to let myself know, beware of what u write. Above all, choose appropriate words to convey the proper meaning of what we are trying to say. Cheese~~

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

♥ ♫ ♥Not Afraid♥ ♫ ♥

The second time I fall for this song. I love it more than before just like I owez do when listening to Hollywood Undead’s songs. I’m so into it. I love the lyric as well even if so many curses here and there. I can feel the energy, the enthusiasm is filling my soul. It’ll never be boring to hear it yet again, each and every time. This type of song is absolutely my taste right after I comprehend the actual meaning of anger and grudge. But I know my limit, listening to these type of songs is the way to let go all redundant feelings, not more than that. Music is my best friend in every mood that I had. There’s always the right one for any specific moment. Let’s enjoy this!

Not Afraid Lyrics

[Chorus]
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Hola if you feel that you’ve been down the same road

[Intro]
Yeah, It’s been a ride…
I guess i had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you’re trying to get out, just follow me
I’ll get you there

[Verse 1]
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ‘em
But you won’t take the sting out these words before I say ‘em
Cause ain’t no way I’m let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say ‘em or do something I do it, I don’t give a damn
What you think, I’m doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it’s gassed up, if a thinks its stopping me
I’mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don’t try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he’s still shittin,
Whether he’s on salary, paid hourly
Until he battles out or he shit just battles out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He’s married to the game, like a fuck you for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he’s got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the whole Universe

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
Ok quit playin’ with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn’t have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it’s a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you’re getting capped
And to the fans, I’ll never let you down again, I’m back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let’s be honest, that last Relapse CD was “ehhhh”
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain’t going back to that now
All I’m tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain’t playin’ around
There’s a game called circle and I don’t know how
I’m way too up to back down
But I think I’m still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn’t
This fucking black cloud still follow’s me around
But it’s time to exercise these demons
These motherfukers are doing jumping jacks now!

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
And I just can’t keep living this way
So starting today, I’m breaking out of this cage
I’m standing up, Imma face my demons
I’m manning up, Imma hold my ground
I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

[Verse 3]
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don’t even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My World, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise

To focus solely on handling my responsibility’s as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn’t lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I’m strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I’m raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I’m too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

[Chorus]
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel that you’ve been down the same road

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5-yKhDd64s

Saturday, July 17, 2010

“Falling out of love is tough, falling for betrayal is worst.”

Now I’m alone, sitting on my bed n listening to the sound of falling rain. Loud drops of heavy rain and I’m thinking... It’s been a while I’ve been idle in blogging. Well, I’m a bit indolent to share my feelings to the viewer. Back to three years ago, at the time when I’m a broken hearted, there’s always something to write. Vomit it out in my blog and let the readers make their own speculation concerning me. Coz I rather let it out in words and it feels just like I’m writing my diary. That was the time when I am totally paranoid. I refuse to share my own sentiment to anyone.. Yes! I mean everyone including my friends.
Flashing back to 2007, most of my blog post was about anger and disenchantment. That was the previous me. I’ve been in frustration and I know how awful it is when you are losing grip in your belief. Which u certainly never thought it will be to u. I don’t even know what else to do other than to regret it along with weeping. I’m blaming myself coz being such a moron for letting someone ruin my life by means of betraying my trust.
Enough with that, I’m about to tell u on how I move ahead and picking off all the pieces in order to fix it back. Such a hard thing to be done actually, but really worth it. God sometimes wants us to learn a lesson in such complicated ways. We may not know what He wants until we get better than what we ever wanted. At that time, we will realize that we ought to have much better. That is more or less to what I feel now. Keep in mind that, He’s always with us. Just say your prayer, He will be there to listen and answer it.
Although beforehand you’re the one I wish I could forget but still I can’t erase, by now I know you don’t deserve me. Being such a denial sometimes help us to get through. Once in a while, we possibly knew that something is just isn’t right, but we just shut our eyes to see the truth then keep on going. It might be a good stride but then it may become worst. So please.. Don’t ever be careless particularly when it comes to relation. Always remember to take caution in what we do. That’s all. Good Luck & God Bless You.